Her salary went for mortgage, a four room house in the hills of Suburbia, away from the thugs and the drug dealers, away from the neighborhood where she earned the mortgage that got her family in a safe place.
Her body grew extra layers to blanket itself against the ill wills of broken lives she tried to mend daily in her job.
She was in a state of constant alert. At night, she fell asleep with swollen ankles and a guilty feeling about not having enough time to oversee her own children's homework, to call her mother, to brush her teeth properly, as the dentist insisted. She hugged herself, clenched her teeth and prayed in her own way.
Her body grew extra layers to blanket itself against the ill wills of broken lives she tried to mend daily in her job.
"Are you Latina?
"Why do you ask these questions? What difference would it make?"
"Because it makes a difference. If you're not Latina, you can't understand our problems. You can't teach here!"
"I see kids in need, with real problems. Ask me if I'm prepared!"
Adults were pre-aligned to evaluate your racial sensibilities.
She struggled to stay calm, to stay composed, this petite young mother, and none of this made her a good or a bad teacher East of Main. Her last name might have helped if it had been Marquez, Rodriques. She could have given them a lesson about integration from her childhood, from a school that had just integrated, where children feared sitting next to each other. People did not forget history in the South where she was educated. She could have told them stories that would put segregation in its proper perspective.
She told them what mattered to them.
"I'm Mrs. Castro," she said, "se puede hablar espanol aqui?"
